5-day stress

What a tour.. it was stressful and restless..
we don't have enough time with the Manila tour we were rushing from one place to another because we lacked time we were chasing time! waaaah
that was my worst tour ever i swear! hehe *sob


Super ferry 12 for 21 hours.. we had our duty there as house keeper, Receptionist and Service..

Manila: day 1: La Salle - MOA - Atrium Hotel for our sleep for 5hrs only! wtf!
Manila: day 2: eastwood, something fishy resto - enderun - tagaytay - enchanted kingdom

Super ferry 19 for 21 hours: still had our duty and after everything, we had our graduation hurray! finally we're done with the APEX.. haha

it was a fun yet tiring experience yet great..

it's over

Friday Feb 19 2010, i had my retreat but i stayed online and he was online also, so we chat for a little while but he went out cuz he's sleepy and he told me he will mail me the next day..

Saturday Feb 20, 2010, i waited til evening but no mail has arrived..hmmm i kind of dont feel like it..

Sunday Feb 21, 2010, i saw his updates on his facebook so i supposed he's online so i checked my mail right away but i still didn't receive any. i posted something on his wall but he didn't replied.. i was starting to get worried :( then after some hours, i saw another update of him, making a reply in a picture comment of his friends i was really annoyed..

Monday Feb 22, 2010, i emailed to remind him that today is our monthsary (1yr, 9mos) still no reply but at around 11am, he went online and offline @ ym then he used his old account, still going online and offline so i ask him what happened to him and then after a few minutes, he replied.. "don't wait for me" i thought it was just a joke but it wasnt..

to make the long story short, HE broke up with me.. his first reason was he is having problems with his family and then i was wondering how does our relationship connect to it so i kept on bugging him.. he told me our relationship will never work because he's not coming back. tears fell and as much as i want to stop crying, i just can't. mom asked me why am i crying again, i didnt answer.. the tears just went flowing very fast i cant hold it.

i tried a lot of ways to keep our LDR work but it just didnt. but in the first place, he told me to never give up on him no matter what, and he wants me to wait for him no matter how long.. but look at it now, look who's giving up already? i could hardly understand his reasons at all, if he want this relationship works, then he would find ways i kept on suggesting but he said, "NO!" no matter what i do, it just wouldn't work, according to him.. something is really not good in here i have to find it out..he said there's no 3rd party involved it's just that he's not going back anymore at all.

whatever the reason is, i just hope he'll be fine there.. i wasted 3 months of my life thinking that he still loves me and would never leave me.. but i was fooled for 3 months i didn't realize that he'll be leaving me.. im blinded by his promises he told me not to worry but he made me do so..he told me that he'll come back for me but he won't be. welli dont really care if he won't be coming back anymore, as long as we're still holding on it's fine but he said he wont hold on anymore so let it be :( cant do anything about it..

so long eric :) thank you for everything..i'll be missing every little bit of u :) hehe

very Busy

I'll be very busy this week because of my preparation for my graduation.. yayy... yeah im sooo excited to come up on stage and receive my diploma.. haha anyways, i just got home from our overnight retreat it was fun... but boring..haha

so these are my scheds for feb and march:

Feb 15-20: Signing of Clearance
Feb 18-19: Pre - Finals
Feb 19-20: Retreat
Feb 23-26: Apex Manila
Mar 1-5: Final exams for graduating
Mar 1: Graduation Ball
Mar 19: Graduation!!! woooot

and there's still more.. i have to update this soon..
wew,, exhausting :(

Long Distance Relationship...

Long before, i never want to have a long distance relationship (LDR) for i know, it will never work..i have lots of friends having LDR and it was a failure and i felt sad about it and that's one of the reason why im against it.. haha

i have been to a lot of relationships..serious, not serious, the isang linggong pag-ibig (one week love.. it's actually a song title), a month-long experience, 5-days contract... and i never expect to have an LDR..

but then, look at me now. my boyfriend is in Arizona and im left here in the Philippines for 2 years or more..and it's soooo hard because im used to being with him from time to time, im used to receive text messages from him every now and then but now, everything's just fading away, no more texts, no more hugs and kisses.. no more at all.. :( and it's sooo sad and i have to face reality and the difficulties ahead. i have to be positive in every way possible.

What we do to keep our relationship happy... somehow :) hehe

• constant emailing
• skype, ym, facebook
• exchange of pictures
• cards
• and we're still thinking what good things to do hehe

Hands up to those couples who made it especially to my parents. It's a tough job and you have to put your trust on your partner. But communication is the key.. :) and since he's far away, i make myself busy.. i had over time at work, go out at night with friends, chill at my best friend's house, chill at school and went shopping but at the end of the day, i still miss him :( haaayzzz.. I still hate LDR but i will be getting used to it soon..

Happy Heart's Day

Today is Valentine's day.. happy heart's day everyone..i guess you're eating chocolates right now.. hehe

well, my vday is kinda sad.. but i had a good start today i received a valentine card from my dodong yey.. :) hmmm.. later tonight i guess me and my girl friends will be hanging out to some bars.. hopefully.. :D hehehe

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Valentines day (also known as V-Day or Emo Poem day) signals the start of the human mating season. Around February 14th, females of the human race release a hormone, attracting males from all over. This hormone may make males irritable, often causing them to compete for their desired female by working themselves into a frenzy of shopping. The male will exchange gifts with the female and often invite them to a party or school dance. Woe to the male who forgets or ignores this holiday, for the infamous Hallmark curse will cause him to break up with his significant other, should he have one, or cause him to be branded "unromantic" for life. hahahaha

So this is me

Hello everyone! So im MYSKAR but the real name is MARIA QUEENIE.. hehe i got myskar as my nickname from Slapshock's song, My Skar.. i've been using it for almost 7 years already (i think) haha.. im 22, and a graduating student soon,, YAY..

I'm not really into blogging but this time, i feel like i wanna write everything that happened to me since i have no one to talk to anymore :( haha loner much?

So im new here.. help me out...wahahaha but i do blogs before... so i think it'll be easy for me to blog around here.. hope to have new friends..

i guess that would be all.. thank u for the time in reading this nonsense post..haha worth it? lolz//
see you around :)